My eldest daughter exploded on me months ago. She said, “I am depressed too, you know. I am having a hard time dealing with all of this, mom. Our house is not a home. This is all bullcrap. I hate this life. I just want to die!”
She is nineteen, and yes, her words are alarming. She could be telling the truth, and do what she says. Or it could be that her hormones are acting up, as the teenager that she is, and her declaration of “wanting to die” is just an imbalance of hormones in her brain. Truthfully, I would go for the imbalance reason. At least, I’ll know that she doesn’t mean it. No matter he stubborn and challenging she is for me to handle, she is my child. She is my firstborn, and I love her with all my heart, mind, and soul.
Teenagers hate everything, we all know that. I did my research on Google. I was led to a website in South Africa saying that in their country, 1 out of 5 teenagers wishes to die. Teen suicide is outrageously rampant, and it sank my heart too deep. My search stopped there, and I didn’t want to continue. Could it be true that my eldest really wanted to die? If so, what can I do about it?
How It Came About
Okay, let’s start from the beginning. My eldest daughter (I have five kids; four of them are girls and an only boy) discovered that her father was having an affair. She found him, more like, she saw his car parked outside a condominium building when he was supposed to be on travel. Upon seeing her father’s car, my daughter called me up. We met right outside the building, and that’s how we confronted her father.
I thought that everything was just fine with her since she is a headstrong and tough young lady. I didn’t realize that it would hit her hard. She seemed so fine, at first. Well, after two months of bottling it in, she exploded. She lashed out, and she released it on me. I can now attest that having your kids with you when you discover or confront your spouse who is cheating on you, is a big NO.
My daughter, right now, is trying to cope. She has ways on how to handle her anger issues and depression. I think her therapist helped her with that. After the incident, my best friend who happens to be a child psychologist, professionally recommended that I bring my daughter to a colleague of her. She said that my eldest needs to release her anger safely and talk to a person who is unbiased since I can’t do that. I am so glad that I did what she advised me to do.
She is not exploding anymore, and I noticed that she’d been involved with her varsity team more than ever. My daughter plays Ladies Team Football Varsity in their university, and she’s been happy. I learned that she broke up with her boyfriend, for reasons I don’t know. I hope it’s for the best. I hope that she will be finally good, mentally and emotionally. I don’t want my daughter to belong in the statistics.